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That song is in my head right now and it gives me that sense of summer time down at the beach with friends having a drink and dancing to good music. You know the typical soft drink ad! I've had many moments like these in my life - I am pretty lucky. I worked for a travel company for years and was basically paid to socialise with people travelling through Europe... tough I know, but someone has gotta do it!

With this song rolling around in my head it makes me think of the holiday season coming up and of New Years Eve - what am I going to do! I think what is more in the forefront of my mind is how am I going to celebrate. For years drinking with friends was the best way to celebrate - but honestly now I know it doesn't. What kind of makes me squirm a little though is that i am uncomfortable with the fact that I don't enjoy drinking anymore - weird huh! I am quite happy not to drink - but have such a massive contingency of friends that enjoy the social drink on occasion I find it difficult. It actually really causes me confusion and is something that I think about.

On one hand I love having a drink with these guys, we always have fun and there are always some hilarious stories that come out of our gatherings. Whether it is someone's wedding or just a backyard BBQ I love them! They themselves have actually toned down a lot and don't drink nearly as much as we all used to travelling, but generally when we get together a beverage or two is shared. So part of me is sitting here right now wanting to say I don't drink anymore - but feel like I will cut out some good times from my life if i say I will never drink again.

This is all coming from me because if I say to them I'll be the driver tonight - they are fine. There is no real peer pressure at all (unlike the old days of being dragged back to the bar in ones pyjamas). I guess it's just the Taurus in me trying to create another boundary tris bottle supplier, another line that i don't drink. When hanging out here in Ubud with my tribe of spiritual lovers, alcohol isn't really a subject. We just head to crazy spiritual ceremonies with High Priestess's channelling alcoholic gods for our kicks. To be perfectly honest - we get high on our energetic experiences and emotional releases. They by far create some good times (and crazy and hard times), but overall I really enjoy them too. Alcohol here in Ubud really isn't needed or wanted.

So, I sit here thinking about NYE and thinking what do I want to do? I wouldn't mind being in one of those well known soft drink ads, having some drinks on the beach with some hot surfers and a bonfire, dancing to some awesome music or kicking it back with someone playing the guitar. I'm sure I can have just as much fun doing that with tasty MOCKtails in my hands rather than cocktails. So maybe I can have my cake and eat it too?

I guess I don't have to decide this all right now, and why I have to give myself someone kind of line I don't know. If i had to I guess I would say generally I don't drink, on the odd occasion I might have one or two, I like that - it fits. No restrictions. So why aren't I satisfied?

I think it's to do with the fact I have friends on both sides of the multidimensional scale. Ones fully immersed in all dimensions communicating with Gods, doing breathwork and getting high on energy healings with the others working in their everyday jobs, making amazingly beautiful babies and creating stunning homes. Neither one is better than the other - and I bet you my friends on both sides would say they are on both sides - like me.

There is no wrong, there is no right. I think in every moment you can change. In every moment we can allow ourselves to be who we want. Let ourselves only be defined when we finally lay our head down on this life and look back. Then we will probably say - wow I tried everything and let the good times roll... no matter which side I was on!